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Teddy Altman ; APPOINTMENTS
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[Action, January 1st]
Thank you!
[Action, November 21]
Ultimately, one must use power, or be used by it.
This, I have learned with experience.
[Action, November 21]
But if you're not careful, you can be used by your own power even if you're using it properly. I learned that with experience, too. It's the first time that ever happened to Billy, and... you know what the fallout was like. It makes sense that he'd be scared of it right now.
Re: [Action, November 21]
[He examines the sandwich as if it is the most interesting thing in the world.]
Something a bit like that happened to me in my much younger days. [And he doubts Billy would be nearly so forgiving of himself.]
Fear is natural. But if it leads him to try to cut off part of himself...
[Action, November 21]
[Teddy mirrors Loki's actions, staring at his half-eaten sandwich like it holds all the answers.]
But the more people push Billy to use his magic again, especially so soon after all of this happened, the more he won't want to do it. And the only way for his magic to work is if he wants it again. Everyone forcing a decision on him when he's so afraid of his power is only going to push him the other way. He has to want it himself, and that'll take a lot of time. He needs time to heal first.
Re: [Action, November 21]
I expect this to be a long-term game.
For my part, I will simply...be as myself. I think Billy would find it suspicious if I refrained from magics around him. [He smiles slightly.] Or refrained completely from needling him. He knows me too well.
But I am... glad to know you and I are ultimately of the same mind.
[Action, November 21]
Just don't overdo it, okay? He got really overwhelmed with everyone telling him he should get back into it the day he said he was done. [He sets the food down for the moment, instead raising his hand a bit to gesture lightly as he speaks.] I do want him to get back into it again, but only on his own terms. That's why I told him I was okay with whatever he decided to do. I wasn't saying I was totally fine with him giving it up. But that I'll stand by him no matter what choices he makes, and I'll try to help him make the right ones. When he's okay enough to be making them.
Re: [Action, November 21]
[He gives Teddy a crooked smile.]
One never does.
[Action, November 21]
But he can be less scared. More comfortable with himself. Right now, he's not... either of those things. [Teddy doesn't show much emotion with Loki, but right now, he casts his eyes downward, expression showing all his concern and solemness.] He just needs to recover as a person before he can recover with his powers.
Re: [Action, November 21]
He's a magician, Teddy. The idea that he is at all separate from his powers is an illusion. We are not men who happen to have magic. It is our blood.
[He shrugs.] But perhaps it is an illusion that will do him good in the short term.