[That's part of it too, he knows. She never directly said everything was fine or that he shouldn't feel shame, but she'd never let him take all the blame either, letting him know that the bully started it, that Teddy was defending someone, that he didn't know just how strong he was. Still...]
But I... I didn't want to work on it. I wanted to be as far away from it as I could. I thought I was dangerous... I thought I'd hurt more people, or break more things, if I did anything. So... I didn't. I stayed in my room and wouldn't let myself touch anything. I cried a lot... and if I got bored, I just slept. If I couldn't control myself then, how could I control myself now? That's what I was thinking, anyway... [As much as a kid could think something like that.]
[action, february 1st]
[That's part of it too, he knows. She never directly said everything was fine or that he shouldn't feel shame, but she'd never let him take all the blame either, letting him know that the bully started it, that Teddy was defending someone, that he didn't know just how strong he was. Still...]
But I... I didn't want to work on it. I wanted to be as far away from it as I could. I thought I was dangerous... I thought I'd hurt more people, or break more things, if I did anything. So... I didn't. I stayed in my room and wouldn't let myself touch anything. I cried a lot... and if I got bored, I just slept. If I couldn't control myself then, how could I control myself now? That's what I was thinking, anyway... [As much as a kid could think something like that.]