Luke fon Fabre; Appointments

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Used for one-on-one conversations/meetings, messages, gifts, or any back-tagging. I hope to use this way more than I probably should. B)

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May 16

[fabrecation]

[The sound of his name gets him to lift his head up just slightly, before he lets it fall to the pillow again. Doing that kind of hurt. And... he recognizes that voice.

Emil. He was there when... that happened. Wasn't he? Trying to help...]

May 16

[knightofratatosk]

[Emil misinterprets this action, thinking that Luke was asleep when he came in and that he woke the other boy up.]

I'm sorry, I didn't mean to wake you up... I can come back later if you want.

May 16

[fabrecation]

It's fine.

[He'd rather no one be here at all. But... he's not going to get that, is he? So might as well let these people stay.]

May 16

[knightofratatosk]

Are you sure? I really don't mind leaving at all...

May 16

[fabrecation]

Emil... it's fine.

[Whether he leaves or not, really. But... that's why Emil came here, right? It wouldn't be right to chase him out.]

May 16

[knightofratatosk]

Then... okay.

[As long as Luke is okay with it. He doesn't want to be a nuisance.]

... how are you feeling?

[It's a stupid question and he knows it, but he really isn't sure what else to say.]

May 16

[fabrecation]

... Mm.

[How does he answer that? He's feeling horrible, of course, but he doesn't even have the energy to say it. To explain it. Shouldn't it be obvious?]

I don't... know what to do.

May 16

[knightofratatosk]

Because... because of Asch?

[...]

I'm sorry. I'm sorry I couldn't have been more useful. If I'd been better at healing, then maybe I...

May 16

[fabrecation]

...

Don't blame yourself like that, it wasn't your fault. I don't... [He gives a light wince and grips the pillow a little tighter.] I don't think anyone could've saved him. I couldn't do anything either.

May 16

[knightofratatosk]

Maybe that's true, but I can't help but feel that I could've done more somehow. I mean, I've been practicing Nala's healing for years now. Shouldn't I be better at it than this?

May 16

[fabrecation]

It... It was already too late, Emil, he -

[His voice rises in pitch, and shakes at the end. He doesn't want to think about this, he doesn't want to talk about this, he doesn't...]

May 16

[knightofratatosk]

Luke...

[And suddenly Emil feels guilty for even bringing the subject up in the first place. If he'd known it would upset Luke this much... of COURSE it would upset Luke this much, what was he thinking?

Silently, he creeps over to the edge of the bed, then reaches out a hesitant hand to rest it on the other boy's shoulder.]

May 16

[fabrecation]

[Maybe when Asch came back. Maybe when that void in his mind and heart and soul is filled again. Maybe when his own crushing guilt and sorrow lessens.

But now isn't that time.

He doesn't move to the touch - barely feels it, honestly, since that's his hurt shoulder. But at least he isn't moving away from it, only squints his eyes slightly to try to hold back that stinging sensation. Dammit, he's done this enough...]

May 16

[knightofratatosk]

[Rather than say anything, Emil just keeps rubbing his shoulder; then, remembering something Richter would do for him when he was sick, he moves his hand up to Luke's hair, but hesitates for a moment before actually touching it. It always made him feel better, but would it be too forward to do it for Luke? They still don't know each other all THAT well...

But Luke just looks so SAD that at last Emil decides to go through with it, reaching out and just stroking the red hair gently, hoping it will make him feel at least a little better.]