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kukkijar2015-05-01 01:20 am
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Who: Luke fon Fabre and Xion
What: A good end.
Where: Luceti
[It had torn Luke apart up and down to think about the decision he had to make, to stay or go home. He was... happy here, so happy. He'd grown up so much, he'd found so many friends, found a purpose, a reason for his existence even when he didn't need any... he'd found love. A love so powerful that he never, ever wanted to let it go.
But... his old home, his world, Auldrant would be destroyed if he stayed there. He and only he could save it, and Luke had a debt to pay to it as well. He was the one who screwed it up in the first place - no, that's not quite right. He had a hand in it, however unintentional it was. He could never forgive himself if he left it to its doom. If he didn't go back to free Lorelei, then everything he ever did would be for nothing.
And that would mean walking straight into his death. Even if he didn't free Lorelei, he'd be dead anyway, what with his fonons separating back at home. He was doomed to die an early death either way, and that - that's utterly terrifying to go back to. To knowingly walk into his own death... To freely walk away from this new life he found, to make that choice. It scared him to his core, and made him so horribly depressed.
Not only that, but the thought of facing down his ultimate weakness scared him too. He could only imagine what that was like... Luke had so many weaknesses, and failure meant - it meant a fate worse than death. To take the trial was to stare down an abysmal fate once more. But if he were to go home... Luke knew he had to take it. He had to face his fears, his weaknesses, in order to save Auldrant.
Or maybe... that wasn't the case. Luke had been ready for it when the time came, had even snuck off to try facing the trial alone when Jade miraculously found him, stopped him, and... gave him another option.
Don't face the trial. Go back home. And come back to Luceti at some unknown time.
The thought of a third choice just bowled Luke right over. After he'd been told that, and an emotional moment with Jade, Luke came back to the camp and sat down heavily by one of the tents to think it all over, though he kept a watch out for monsters, people coming and going to their trials, and... the person he'd fallen so in love with in the first place. This was important... something that needed to be discussed before anything could be done.]
What: A good end.
Where: Luceti
[It had torn Luke apart up and down to think about the decision he had to make, to stay or go home. He was... happy here, so happy. He'd grown up so much, he'd found so many friends, found a purpose, a reason for his existence even when he didn't need any... he'd found love. A love so powerful that he never, ever wanted to let it go.
But... his old home, his world, Auldrant would be destroyed if he stayed there. He and only he could save it, and Luke had a debt to pay to it as well. He was the one who screwed it up in the first place - no, that's not quite right. He had a hand in it, however unintentional it was. He could never forgive himself if he left it to its doom. If he didn't go back to free Lorelei, then everything he ever did would be for nothing.
And that would mean walking straight into his death. Even if he didn't free Lorelei, he'd be dead anyway, what with his fonons separating back at home. He was doomed to die an early death either way, and that - that's utterly terrifying to go back to. To knowingly walk into his own death... To freely walk away from this new life he found, to make that choice. It scared him to his core, and made him so horribly depressed.
Not only that, but the thought of facing down his ultimate weakness scared him too. He could only imagine what that was like... Luke had so many weaknesses, and failure meant - it meant a fate worse than death. To take the trial was to stare down an abysmal fate once more. But if he were to go home... Luke knew he had to take it. He had to face his fears, his weaknesses, in order to save Auldrant.
Or maybe... that wasn't the case. Luke had been ready for it when the time came, had even snuck off to try facing the trial alone when Jade miraculously found him, stopped him, and... gave him another option.
Don't face the trial. Go back home. And come back to Luceti at some unknown time.
The thought of a third choice just bowled Luke right over. After he'd been told that, and an emotional moment with Jade, Luke came back to the camp and sat down heavily by one of the tents to think it all over, though he kept a watch out for monsters, people coming and going to their trials, and... the person he'd fallen so in love with in the first place. This was important... something that needed to be discussed before anything could be done.]
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So many years. So much suffering, and pain... and beautiful, wonderful, perfect moments. People she loved, people she lost, people she regained. A whole world she never thought she could call her own, and ... a family. A real one. So many people she'd come to love and wish desperately to protect. All these years she'd worked so hard, learning different weapons, different magic, becoming stronger, becoming older.
She never would have thought of herself as a woman. But here now, in this cave, at the end of all things, she feels like a grown up for the first time. How old is she now? Is she still seventeen? Has she lasted long enough, spent enough time, to make it to eighteen? She's not sure. She doesn't think so. But she kind of wants to pretend she has. It feels important, somehow. Like a definitive line in the sand she knows she can cross and stand on the other side with her chin held high.
Right now, though, it's hard to feel much triumph. The decision they've been presented with is an awful one. Long ago, Sora had told her to live her own life. And she well knew that even without her retuning back home, that somehow, some way, he'd be fine... she'd seen it for herself. He'd arrived from a point past when she should have been needed. For a very long time, Xion had had no intention of ever returning home should the option be offered.
But Luke... Luke wasn't that way, was he.
And Xion had been left to wonder what she'd do. How she'd cope in a world without him. Her immediate inclination had been to stay with Sanji. But a deeper piece of her, a darker piece that was bent to the point of breaking, wanted to just go home. To die. Because to be without Luke, to know he was dead and gone forever, someplace she could never reach him again...
She just wasn't sure if it was more than she could bear.
Xion had yet to work herself up to even trying to face the trial. Her mind was still awhirl with the possibilities, almost all of them bleak, and it made her reluctant to face the inevitable. Instead she'd gone to face the monsters, to help guard anyone who needed safety and take her mind off of ... everything.
When she returns, unharmed by the grace of darkness corridors and quick thinking, she finds him. She stops like she's been frozen to the spot, her heart leaping into her throat. Her chest hurts. Her eyes hurt.
He was always going to do this. She knew a long time ago. A tearful, tearing conversation comes to mind, one that ended with both of them crying because he wouldn't stay. For a long, terrible moment, Xion considers not going to him. Avoiding him instead, finding someone else, keeping herself busy and away from the inevitable, awful heartbreak she's not sure she can withstand...
But instead her feet bring her to his side. Because he is her everything, and she's no longer a scared little girl. Even her greatest fears are no match for the love she feels for him.
When she sits down beside him, she's quiet, but she immediately leans against him to rest her head on his shoulder, curling her hands into her lap. ]
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They'd had this conversation before, after all. Luke had to go back. His own life had no meaning - ... his own life wasn't as important to him as the lives of millions of others. And Asch. To go back would mean to end the cycle that had started between them, of Luke absorbing Asch's fonons more and more until Asch died, and the power of Luceti would bring him back. It was awful, knowing that that was Asch's fate, knowing that Luke was the cause, that there was nothing he could do to stop it.
But again, Jade provided another way. Luke owes that man so much, and he has no idea where to start.
...
Better to start by doing what Jade wants and actually live, probably. Even if it means dying first.
With Xion against his side, Luke looks down at the cold floor at first, then at his hands, which are held tightly together.]
Jade told me there's another way.