[He was watching, of course he was watching, and he saw Katniss talk to me, and now he - he -
Teddy hisses and grips his hair again, but his steps still don't break. It's like the voice is whispering, but it just gave something away - rather, Billy did.]
Maybe - Maybe that's why it kept hurting. It's not like I didn't want to dance with Katniss, I did. But just the thought made that flu-pain come back. Didn't you feel it when you hugged me?
[Teddy was sure he was overheated, at least. It's what made him want to get out of there at last, that and how painful it all was. Is this pain because he's worried what Billy will think of him? He's not, he never was before this happened. So why...?
The moment his doubt comes back, his steps stop, and his hands clench once more.
"Why should you look at them? This is all you need. This is the one who knows and loves you best."]
Why should I look at them, anyway? It's not like I have anyone else.
[It's not quite what the voice said, but it's something from deep within, from the dark, dark corner of his mind that sometimes rears up at night. My mom is gone. I don't have any other family that I know. I haven't gone on my walks in the city, surely everyone's forgotten me. Why would anyone ever like Teddy Altman when they could have whoever they wanted?]
[action, june 9th]
[He was watching, of course he was watching, and he saw Katniss talk to me, and now he - he -
Teddy hisses and grips his hair again, but his steps still don't break. It's like the voice is whispering, but it just gave something away - rather, Billy did.]
Maybe - Maybe that's why it kept hurting. It's not like I didn't want to dance with Katniss, I did. But just the thought made that flu-pain come back. Didn't you feel it when you hugged me?
[Teddy was sure he was overheated, at least. It's what made him want to get out of there at last, that and how painful it all was. Is this pain because he's worried what Billy will think of him? He's not, he never was before this happened. So why...?
The moment his doubt comes back, his steps stop, and his hands clench once more.
"Why should you look at them? This is all you need. This is the one who knows and loves you best."]
Why should I look at them, anyway? It's not like I have anyone else.
[It's not quite what the voice said, but it's something from deep within, from the dark, dark corner of his mind that sometimes rears up at night. My mom is gone. I don't have any other family that I know. I haven't gone on my walks in the city, surely everyone's forgotten me. Why would anyone ever like Teddy Altman when they could have whoever they wanted?]